There is a game called Nihilumbra: You are born from the void, and the void keeps chasing you, trying to engulf you. To live, you travel, you learn all kinds of "colors" as tools to fight back. After a long journey, however, the void still catches you. You are in despair. Unexpectedly, however, the void expels you - all those colors that you collected during your journey have filled your void inside. You are no longer empty. You are no longer part of the void.
You are free at last.
But that's not the end. The world has been destroyed. That will prevail in your conscience unless you fix it.
I like this game a lot. I had always been empty since childhood. “从童年起，我便独自一人照顾着，历代的星辰。” That emptiness reached its maximum during my undergraduate study. I wouldn't have felt sorry at all, had I died at some random accident. Well, yes, there were people who loved me, there were interesting things that were nice to experience, the world was in general good. But I had no passion for anything.
Not until I finally made my way to physics.
But that's not the end. I was and still am lacking way too much knowledge. I hope to use the rest of my life to fill this new, lovely, adorable void.
I can never fail - at least I can fill a very small part of it.